cik A : aku nak mintak maaf, aku tau aku salah, aku memang kejam giler dekat kau, aku pun tak tau nape aku wat camtu. bla bla bla.
cik B :.................(silence is not an acceptance*)
situasi diatas adalah contoh, tiada kena mengena dengan yang sudah selamat atau masih selamat. dan, siap aplikasikan apa yang aku belajar dalam subject 'law' tu.
for some reasons, we are easy to accept apologies, and for some reasons we are not easy to accept an apology.
bila seseorang tu pernah lalui situasi yang sangat menyakitkan jiwa peraasaan dan juga hati, korang rasa dia nak ambil risiko lalui benda tu lagi ke ? korang pon tanak kan ? unless korang memang tiada perasaan(not counted).
okay, aku sendiri pernah lalui laaa.
orang yang super baik dengan aku, marah gila viva kat aku atas reason yang aku dan jugak kawan aku yang lain rasa aku tak buat.
dan bila dia mintak maaf, my heart was not accepted the word 'maaf'. i just can't );
and only time can be the cure. and now, we are't closed, we just 'biasa biasa saja'
kalau rasa aku jahat, maaf la, i am :)
kawan aku ada cakap, 'yang meminta maaf tu lebih elok, tapi nak memaafkan tu bukan kerja mudah' even orang cakap, 'i can forgive but i can't forget'. macam tak ikhlas je kan. hehe.
i was so closed with my abah when i was kid, abah balik keje je mesti aku sorak sorak, 'yeayea abah balik, abah balik'.
pastu abah pulak belikan teady bear yang boleh terbalikkan jadik bantal dua ketul untuk aku. seronok habis. abah kerja bawak lori minyak petronas, so dia selalu la jalan jauh.
pastu mintak abah belikan buah, nak buah kiwi, tapi tak tau nama, sebut lah buah ciku, and abah belikan lah, dah dapat tu, cakap kat abah 'ni bukan ciku, nak ciku yang kaler hijau ade bijik bijik kecik dan ade putih kat tengah dia tu', abah dah tegelak gelak, 'kiwi lah adik', tak lame tu dia belikan jugak.
abah balik keje je, kene bukakkan stokin dia, pastu dok atas riba dia, borak borak, pastu dia dengar mak bebel kat dapur marah kat aku la kot, dia cakap 'mak tu bebel je kan adik' aku pon ape lagi, ngumpat sama la. hehe
abah suka mintak urutkan kaki dia, penah sekali tu masa aku lom pandai tengok jam, dia cakap urutkan each kaki 5 minit, pastu dia tunjuk kat jam tu, 5 minit tu dari jarum panjang tu kat nombor 12 sampai nombor 6, ikot je la kan, da tau tu, aku marah gak la. but now rasa nak tegelak bila ingat.
abah suka kentut, besar kot bunyi dia, lepas kentut je, soklan dia kat aku 'bunyi apa tu adik?' aku pun jawab, 'abah kentut la tu', da besar besar rasa annoying pulak dia wat camtu.
bulan puasa tak puasa, sebab cikgu kat tadika suruh makan eventhough aku dah tolak(betul betul punye, bukan dogaan), pergi kfc ngan abah sebab nak beli untuk orang kat rumah berbuka, dalam kereta aku cakap 'abah, nak ayam seketol, adik tak puasa, cikgu tak bagi', abah cool je, 'makan la'. balik umah mak yang marah lebih. huuuuuuuuuu.
abah belikan aku basikal, empat roda, 1 depan 3 belakang, dah seronok seronok main, abah tanggalkan satu roda belakang, jatuh jatuh, tapi lepas tu da ok, abah tanggalkan lagi satu, lagi la jatuh jatuh, tapi dia selalu perhatikan, tolong pegang masa mula mula 2 roda je. lama lama pandai.
makin besar aku makin jauh dengan abah, selalu je melawan cakap dia, sekarang abah dah takde, aku rindu dia, benda yang annoyed kan aku dulu pon aku rindu. sangat rindu abah. i love u with all my heart abah, i wish i could say sorry to you, hug and kiss you again T___T
okay, for the first time ever in this blog, i'm posting an entry bout my feeling towards someone that i care, adore and actually love.
before, i was like 'i'm not gonna write anything bout him cuz it might annoyed anyone just like somebody had annoyed me with 'some' entry bout their boyfie, and hell no i would't do the same'.
but now, for time being, i wanna write something that had happen between me and him(ayat terabur ? sorry)
i would't share his picture, cuz i never had one even though we were been together for one and a half year. just believe it or not.
yes, he is different with any other guys that i'd known before, he is not 24/7 there for me, he is not all the time loving man, he is hard to meet, and he is mysterious person.
but, still i dunno why i am into him, seriously wondering.
and now, already over a month we'd broke up, cuz i'm asking for that. the reason was ;
he totally ignored me on my 2nd birthday since we've been together
childish eh ? but can't help for being such emotional on my birthday.
and yesterday, when i miss him badly, i try to call him, and he picked up. the conversation just like ;
me ; hye there.
him ; hye. (sleepy voice, 1 a.m kot, tak beragak aku ni)
me ; is this you ? (stupid Q)
him ; who else are you looking ?
me ; ouh, ok, how are you, where are you ?
him ; in SP(sungai petani). hows life ?
me ; just fine
bla bla bla,
me ; actually whats goin on ?
him ; why are you asking, you the one that asking for break up. bla bla bla, i've told you before, if anything happen don't involve our relationship.
me ; em, ok, i'm sorry, and sorry for disturbing your nap time, bye.
him ; ok, take care, bye.
it just like that ? OMG, how tragic is't it ? even though i'm still loving him, its kinda late now. and we are't meant together maybe.
the conclusions maybe ;
he does't need either love me
he was like 'ouh, thank god, she ask for broke up'
he is so ego
he just collecting jar of heart and tears all it apart
he is.......
okay, this is might be the first and last entry bout him. HAHA, jiwang gak aku ni(gelak cover sambil menangis T_T, booo me, i don't care for now)
korang mesti tau kan apa tu generasi X, Y and maybe Z ni an, yelah korang semua kan educated people, aku ni je baru setahun lebih tau pasal generasi generasi ni. Btw, pandangan aku lah, untuk beri gambaran kat korang, but in case ada yang tak tahu an, in case la, tapi aku rasa semua dah tau ;
Generasi X,
ke sekolah bagi yang berkemampuan, yang nak pergi tapi tak mampu pun tak dapat pergi
pergi sekolah jalan kaki, ada basikal dah cukup baik lah
tak kenal apa itu teknologi especially gadjet eg. cellphone
dah biasa hidup susah, at least kesederhanaan
dan banyak lagi sifat positif yang lain
Generasi Y,(generasi kita, not all but majoriti just like below..)
semua pun mampu bersekolah, mampu pun ada yang taknak pergi
pergi sekolah dengan, bapak, driver, bas, motor, kereta sendiri
berlumba lumba dengan teknologi terbaru eg. iphone
tak biasa dengan kesusahan, hidup sederhana pun dah rasa susah
dan banyak lagi sifat negatif yang lain
Generasi Z, (in future)
dunno what would they be....
for the rest, you can compare by yourself, and hopefully, the future generation would be like generation before us and not going worst. sinis sinis pon, generasi aku jugak yang aku cakap negatif tu kan, tapi nak buat cemana, semua kena ada kesedaran masing masing kalau nak berubah, peringatan espeacially untuk diri aku sendiri.
I know I can't take one more step towards you 'Cause all that's waiting is regret And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore? You lost the love I loved the most
And I learned to live, half-alive And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around If I am anywhere to be found But I have grown too strong To ever fall back in your arms
And I learned to live, half-alive And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me don't come back at all
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright Remember how to put back the light in my eyes I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul Don't come back for me Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
p/s : i prefer to listen her versions than original version of song above, How bout you guys ?? :D
first of all, thanks to dearest God for giving every of us such a wonderful mom. i know that every single person would say that their mom is the best among the best, including me for sure, even if sometimes i think that she scold me without a reason, huh, how dumb am i not to realize what have i done that make her pissed off. my bad, i'm sorry mom :)
please God, show me how to appreciate my precious mom after all! i mean, appreciate her with all my heart :) she's nice, master chef in our heart, good listener, helps her child a lot, and i like the way her thinking even if she's not an educated person, she just naturally brilliant!
okay, i'm not like others who shared all their secret with their moms, cuz i know how would she react, but we are Gossiping cuz she has 4 daughters including me :D she's an old school person, she's no abroad minded, but still, i LOVE her so much and wish that she can lives as long as i live on this earth.
don't look at da camera, old school huh :D
p/s ; fact, she love her grandchild more than her child :D
can't wait for semester break, kena jadik babysitter, and the best part is dapat upah, boleh berpoye-poye even tak sampai sebulan je pon cutinye :) waaa, mesti rindu korang kan wahai current wingmate yang giler dan bising! juga ex-wingmate yang dah macam sedara! (malas mention sape, if korang bace and perasan, ye, korang lah tu).
cerita macam lah cuti lama sangat but, naik cuti ni mesti everything gonna change, yelah, bilik tak same, maybe wing pon tak same, kena jumpa lagi orang baru(maybe), arghhhhhhhh(jerit sikit), malas lah nak suai kenal, susah la nak suaikan diri. hahaha. sekarang memang la cakap camtu, nanti just follow the flow jugak :)
p/s : aku malas lah nak tempel gambar korang, with heart <3 amanina :)
