untuk julung kalinya..

assalamualaikum.

okay, for the first time ever in this blog, i'm posting an entry bout my feeling towards someone that i care, adore and actually love.

before, i was like 'i'm not gonna write anything bout him cuz it might annoyed anyone just like somebody had annoyed me with 'some' entry bout their boyfie, and hell no i would't do the same'.

but now, for time being, i wanna write something that had happen between me and him(ayat terabur ? sorry)

i would't share his picture, cuz i never had one even though we were been together for one and a half year. just believe it or not.

yes, he is different with any other guys that i'd known before, he is not 24/7 there for me, he is not all the time loving man, he is hard to meet, and he is mysterious person.

but, still i dunno why i am into him, seriously wondering.

and now, already over a month we'd broke up, cuz i'm asking for that. the reason was ;

• he totally ignored me on my 2nd birthday since we've been together

childish eh ? but can't help for being such emotional on my birthday.

and yesterday, when i miss him badly, i try to call him, and he picked up. the conversation just like ;

me ; hye there.

him ; hye. (sleepy voice, 1 a.m kot, tak beragak aku ni)

me ; is this you ? (stupid Q)

him ; who else are you looking ?

me ; ouh, ok, how are you, where are you ? 

him ; in SP(sungai petani). hows life ?

me ; just fine

bla bla bla,

me ; actually whats goin on ?

him ; why are you asking, you the one that asking for break up. bla bla bla, i've told you before, if anything happen don't involve our relationship.

me ; em, ok, i'm sorry, and sorry for disturbing your nap time, bye.

him ; ok, take care, bye.

it just like that ? OMG, how tragic is't it ? even though i'm still loving him, its kinda late now. and we are't meant together maybe. 

the conclusions maybe ;

• he does't need either love me
• he was like 'ouh, thank god, she ask for broke up'
• he is so ego
• he just collecting jar of heart and tears all it apart
• he is.......

okay, this is might be the first and last entry bout him. HAHA, jiwang gak aku ni(gelak cover sambil menangis T_T, booo me, i don't care for now)

generasi x, y dan z ?

assalamualaikum.

korang mesti tau kan apa tu generasi X, Y and maybe Z ni an, yelah korang semua kan educated people, aku ni je baru setahun lebih tau pasal generasi generasi ni. Btw, pandangan aku lah, untuk beri gambaran kat korang, but in case ada yang tak tahu an, in case la, tapi aku rasa semua dah tau ;

Generasi X,

• ke sekolah bagi yang berkemampuan, yang nak pergi tapi tak mampu pun tak dapat pergi
• pergi sekolah jalan kaki, ada basikal dah cukup baik lah
• tak kenal apa itu teknologi especially gadjet eg. cellphone
• dah biasa hidup susah, at least kesederhanaan
• dan banyak lagi sifat positif yang lain

Generasi Y,(generasi kita, not all but majoriti just like below..)

• semua pun mampu bersekolah, mampu pun ada yang taknak pergi
• pergi sekolah dengan, bapak, driver, bas, motor, kereta sendiri
• berlumba lumba dengan teknologi terbaru eg. iphone 
• tak biasa dengan kesusahan, hidup sederhana pun dah rasa susah
• dan banyak lagi sifat negatif yang lain

Generasi Z, (in future)

• dunno what would they be....

for the rest, you can compare by yourself, and hopefully, the future generation would be like generation before us and not going worst. sinis sinis pon, generasi aku jugak yang aku cakap negatif tu kan, tapi nak buat cemana, semua kena ada kesedaran masing masing kalau nak berubah, peringatan espeacially untuk diri aku sendiri.